Lost, But Finding My Way

Hi guys,

It's 2025 and I present to you a new post!

How have my silent viewers been? 😊

I have to admit, I am finally typing this on a far more comfortable set-up (about time!), and I cannot deny that I do feel more intrigued to post more regularly because of it. That being said, I cannot promise anything. 😅

I have really missed the days of me typing on here—ranting and sharing thoughts, most of it not making any sense whatsoever. I really do hope that my silent viewers also understand that this isn't meant to be entirely perfect. I haven't had time to go read through my old posts yet, but I just know I'm in for a world of cringe. Albeit, I was younger then, but still...🤢

I really don't know what brought me here today, but I felt compelled to write something. Not a masterpiece or anything (like I ever do that), but something.

I've come to a point in my life now where enough feels enough. I feel very motivated at the moment, and I really hope it can stay that way for a while. I really want to create the life that I want, and I’ve realised that over these past couple of years, I have truly felt lost and alone in life. Don't get me wrong, I still feel that way, but I cannot tell you how fed up I am with it. I really want to finally take that step, make those decisions, and take that risk. I no longer want to hold myself back—and certainly not let others do it either.

I recognise that it's easier said than done, but I truly want to be in a place where I can just do, and it's fine if it doesn't work out. It's okay to make mistakes. The hope is to look back in life, and even if things didn’t pan out the way I wanted, at least I can say I tried. I really don't want to live with regrets anymore. I want to stop being in this victim mentality and finally take that leap. There are a few things in motion, but a lot more to do. I'm sure the best is yet to come, and I really hope I can make the most of getting things done in life—trying to please everyone, and mostly myself. As cringe as that sounds... or is it cringe? 🤔💬

I realise life is really short, and if tomorrow were your last day, could you really tell yourself you lived your life to the best of your ability? Circumstances are unique to everyone. I realise everyone has their own struggles—not denying that—and no one is perfect either. However, I do think the key is to really just take that leap, even if it means failure. I'd rather try than not try at all, and I think that’s worse to live with.

So, I guess that sort of sums up my thoughts right now. I don't know about regularly posting—it really is an out of sight, out of mind kind of thing. 😭

I really miss those nostalgic days, but I feel very optimistic and hopeful for my future, and I hope you do too.

Lots of love,

Jannette 💮